So You Want To Change Your Life, Would You Die For It?

Many people say they want to change their lives. It is pretty common to feel this way. I know I want to change mine. It isn’t something that we do once, but is an ongoing process. The thing is, it can be pretty altering. So, you want to change your life, would you die for it?

Understand, I don’t mean that you actually would die, but that you would cease to exist as you are now. That is a pretty big change! Would you be willing to lose who and what you are right now? don’t just say yea, think about it. we have all seen those movies where someone has to disappear and become someone else. They lose their identity and everything. If you consider a big enough life change, then the result could be that you change in such a way that you are no longer you.

Let me give you an example. I deal with anger. I don’t know why, but I can get angry easily and quickly. I have worked over the years to let go of that anger. Thirty years ago I could fly into a rage at the drop of a hat. I had spent over ten years fighting for a living and so I was pretty good at physically hurting people. I didn’t like that! I wanted to change my anger and I didn’t care that part of me, the part that could hurt people would disappear. There are parts of me that I might not want to disappear.

What about you? What are the parts of you that, if you change, you don’t care if they are not there any more and what parts would you like to keep? As you think about this, ask yourself, what would my life look like if it were perfect? What would I look like if my life were perfect? Of course your life will never be perfect, but as it changes it will be more and more the way you want it to be.

Recently, I have been looking at living my life in a more minimalist way. Getting rid of clutter and becoming not only more organized, but more in control. I don’t mean about things that happen to me, but in control of what I do and don’t do. I hate TV. I am an addict. If it is on, I will watch it. If I start a movie, I cannot turn it off until it is over. I intend to only watch movies on the week-ends. I waste too much time if I allow myself to watch on a week day. That’s the kind of control that I am talking about.

The problem with this is that I will have to stop being the laid back person I have been all my life and be a little more compulsive about some things. I am not sure I want that! I mean, I like being a little bit of a flake, being laid back and not caring about if the dishes are done or not. If I want to make the changes in my life that I am thinking of, then that can’t be. So, I have to decide what I want and be happy with that. Either my life is a chaotic mess, or it is organized and not so laid back. I know that there are happy mediums, but that is basically the decision I have to make.

Back to my original question. So, you want to change your life, would you die for it? Would you want a part of you to die for the changes you make? The bible says that unless a seed fall to the ground and dies, the plant will not grow. Are you willing to let your seed die, or are you going to hang on to it?